Y’all. Your girl is engaged!!! To the most incredible man and wow, he truly is the man of my dreams in every single way. If you know Bill, you know that he is a man of strong character. He’s hilarious and fun and charming and adventurous (and so very handsome!) and I feel more and more myself with each day that we’re together. He’s the hardest worker I know and lights up every room that he’s in. In our year+ of dating I have felt so treasured and pursued by him and have only fallen more in love with life as we’ve fallen in love with each other.
Being his girl is the greatest gift from God.
I wanted to use this post as a special way to share a few pictures and highlights from the day Bill and I got engaged. But also too, I just wanna be honest. This season of engagement has been filled with more challenges and sadness (more on that later) that I didn’t anticipate at all. Wedding culture can honestly be so stressful and the pressures of having a picture perfect wedding are all too real.
At times, I have felt so overwhelmed, feeling the weight of all the things I have to be as a bride. Last week I cried and cried and cried because I honestly felt like I wasn’t pretty enough to be a bride. I struggle with acne and it’s my prayer to have clear skin on my wedding day. But in the midst of all the stress and sleepless nights, the breakouts have actually been getting worse! It’s frustrating. But honestly, I’m grateful because it’s taught me so much about surrender, self-love, and self-compassion.
It seems silly to admit how stressful planning a wedding can be. I would love to share more about it in a later blog post and tell you all the ways I’m seeking to stay positive and present and calm in the midst of so many life changes (because I think we can all struggle with this, even if we aren’t in the middle of planning a wedding!).
But for today, I just want to relive all the magic we felt on the day my sweet fiancé and I got engaged. And William, I just want you to know that everyday with you is the best day ever. You have taught me so much about love and life as a whole. I can’t believe I get to be your forever girl in just three short months!!!
Here’s a lil recap of one of our favorite days. I have butterflies just thinking back to it!!
Speaking of butterflies, we got engaged at the coolest butterfly garden!! The Butterfly House at Texas Discovery Gardens in Dallas is one of our favorite date spots. I’m such a sucker for butterflies and every time I see one, I’m reminded that I’m exactly where I need to be. I often pray for butterflies as a sign or to remind me of God’s presence in the day-to-day. They often appear when things are most challenging or when I need to make big decisions. Right now, they are ALL OVER The Studio!! They dance their way through the garden and surround me as I train with clients. I feel so calm and happy, knowing that this dream is way bigger than myself. These days, everything just feels meant to be. It truly is the most special season of life. Even as I type these words, I’m actually reminded of how much I have to be grateful for. I have let wedding stress really take over and wow, what a bummer. AH! That changes today!!!
Ah, okay okay back to our proposal!!!
Bill planned a date for us with one of our near and dear couple friends. It was business as usual as we laughed and chatted over organic bowls from Flower Child (seriously, if you live in Dallas and haven’t been here, you are missing out. It’s my fav restaurant!). Nothing felt out of the ordinary. However, now looking back, I realize that Bill let me order a tea AND a dessert and that should have been a big giveaway!! But nonetheless, I was clueless!
After lunch, we drove to the Butterfly Gardens and I instantly felt nervous. I immediately ran to the bathroom and legit cleaned out all the dirt from under my nails because my hands were still so dirty from all the deep cleaning I had done that morning in my studio!! Yikes! Every sign pointed to the idea that there was noooo way we would be engaged anytime soon! But hey, just in case, I wanted to be prepared ya know!! 😉
Bill said there was a *new* exhibit taking place at the Gardens and I was willing to play along. After all, I didn’t want to get my hopes up! But boy, was I glad to be wrong.
As we made our way through the exhibit (UH there was NOTHING *new* about it hahaha), I felt more and more nervous. Before I knew it, we had made our way to the end of the walkway where our family and close friends were secretly waiting. The second I saw the photographer, I knew Bill was about to propose!
I was literally speechless and shaking like crazy. I kept thinking, “is this really happening!!!?”.
Holding him tight after he kneeled onto one knee, slid the most darling emerald cut diamond ring onto my tiny lil finger, and asked me to marry him is a moment I will treasure forever.
There has never been a doubt in my mind that Bill is the man I am meant to marry. He is my best friend and I can’t even begin to describe the peace I feel when I’m holding his hand so tight. I miss him like crazy in the moments we’re apart and am counting down the days until I get to be his wife. I’ve never had so much fun just sitting in stillness with someone. And even simple things – like going to the grocery store – are the greatest adventure with him. He’s my match in every way. And wow, loving him and being loved by him is a gift unlike any other.
After the proposal, Bill had another surprise waiting for me at my parent’s home! He coordinated with my parents to plan this entire party for us and invited all our favorite people to come and surprise me. Extended family flew in from Florida and my very best friend (and now Maid of Honor!) came in from Seattle. Special friends traveled in from Houston and far away places just to be there and man, I have never felt so loved.
My dad rented the coolest taco truck and we still get comments about what a cool dad move that was! After eating tacos, everyone took turns sharing about us and I remember thinking, “why is it that I always struggle to believe that I’m loved?”. Like seriously, I can spend so much time thinking and feeling that I’m not enough. Why is that? What other lies have I been believing about myself that are simply not true??
The night ended in the most special of ways. After the party died down and everyone left, Bill and I held each other tight and snuggled close on the couch. We dreamed of all the things we want to do in our lives together as husband and wife. We made plans for our future, decided on a honeymoon spot, and just sat speechless in awe of the day we had. And before it all ended, I snuck another slice of cake and stayed up wayyyy passed midnight giggling and chatting with my momma 🙂
The next day, I got to go dress shopping with Emily (my Maid of Honor & an incredible wedding planer!) and my mom. I had no idea what to expect but the second I tried on *the dress* alllllll the tears came!!! It really is true when they say you know when you know! That same week we booked the venue, photographer, and came up with all the design elements. It was so fun!!! And while all the big stuff is planned, we still have so many tiny details to finish. But it’s all coming together so perfectly and for that, I am grateful.
Ah, in all honestly I’m not quite sure how to end this post!! There’s really not a big point to this story other than the fact that I selfishly wanted to post some of my favorite details from our engagement and carve out a permanent place for our story to live on the internet forever. Hey, is that so wrong!!!? 🙂
In other news, things at The Studio are in full swing. Right at this very moment, I have an artist painting a wall mural on the outside of the container. It is so gorgeous and so freakin inspiring. I hope you can see it in person one day. Here’s a lil sneak peak. You can follow the artist, Steffi, on Instagram here! Her Insta is FULL of inspiration & uplifting quotes.
With that, flamingo friends, I am signing off.
But before I go, I just want to take a moment to remind you that you are enough. Yes, you. Flaws and all. You are worthy of so much love and I hope that little by little you will believe this more and more.